Desire

He was so close..Whispering the sweetest things to me together nothing mattered but us. A passion ignited between two lost souls finding a place that they could call home. I felt it, a desire burning within me to be here and now because truly this is where i want to be be...the past is gone, the future is yet to be...all i need is to be here with you. Now!

The Pain That Grew Fancy: The Woes of Bringing Life

The Pain That Grew Fancy: The Woes of Bringing Life: They say we as women have to go through these struggles to ensure we bring new life into this world and so many of us women have to do it vi...

The Woes of Bringing Life

They say we as women have to go through these struggles to ensure we bring new life into this world and so many of us women have to do it virtually alone. Some unlike me are so young but the pain and uncertainty no less. It is a torture sometimes that many wish they were blessed with understanding from the men we so willingly gave into, who turns out sometimes not to be so willing to help us through it all. Some, and i say some because I've seen men who would give their all to see their child come into this world unscathed, some just don't have a clue what we women have to go through. They make it so much harder for us when they are not there when we need them the most. we get this way about us when we conceive that a un-compassionate man can only see as disgust because of that. You might find your partner beginning to display hate towards you for things most times you have no control over. these emotional changes are hard to define and even harder to explain to someone that have never experienced them. Some men might think you're just trying to find an excuse for your awful behavior but what they don't understand is; those things they look at as so simple hurts so much...its so funny and as simple as him putting something where it shouldn't be and when you ask him not to he expresses how disgusted he is by your behavior and that just tares a little piece of you apart. the anger that is directed at you for things you have no control over making it seem there was never any love between you and there will never be again. 

then comes regret...not regret for the child you now carry but regret for the situation you have to take that child into. so many of us lose our partners during this process because the love you felt never returned to that common ground, this is one of the worst things that can happen during pregnancy and it happens so often. As a woman you just have to channel that hidden strength and find a way to cope, yes tears will come but they'll go away... the life moving inside you will give you the motivation you need to go on. I've been there as most of us have and I've been told by so many that you going to stress out yourself and the baby. But until they have felt that pain and despair you have they will never understand that you do care for yourself and your child its just that the pain is so unbearable sometimes all you can do is cry. i have to send my appreciation to the men that find it within them to stick it out during this very difficult time and to the women that hold them dear to their heart. You are some of the luckiest women in this cruel world and to the men i have to declare you some strong minded men for its not a easy road to travel when living with these woes.... And for those who understand are Laughing and Crying at the same time right now!....  

                             In the End all that truly matters is the Blessing of Bringing Life

A FANCY THOUGHT :)

Being good/bad is like the cork of a Red Label wine bottle...you can tighten it so that the labels line up OH SO PROPA and everything would come together but instead you leave it loose enough so you can always open to drink...like being "bad" ~always being able to do what you want. BUT SOMETIME YOU GOT TO SAY I'VE HAD ENOUGH IT'S TIME TO TIGHTEN IT UP!! *I'M DRUNK* ! A FANCY THOUGHT! :)

GIVE ME MUSIC

GIVE ME MUSIC!! TO THE RHYTHM~~ TO THIS BEAUTIFUL BEAT~ GIVE ME MUSIC SO I CAN MOVE MY FEET...OHHH SWEET SOUNDS TO MY HEARS~MYTHIC--SOMETIMES SPEAKING WORDS UNHEARD-OF~ALSO UNHEARD...THIS RHYTHM IS SPEAKING TO ME TELLING MY OF JOYS~STRUGGLES~GLORIES & PAINS~ CONSTANTLY SWIRLING IN MY BRAIN--GIVE MUSIC SO I MAY BE SANE!!!....

Extracts From My Manuscript "THE PAIN THAT GREW FANCY"
THE PROPA WAY

I CRY...You Can Cry Till There is Blood..If He Doesn't Love You There Is Nothing You Can Do But Leave....For YOU ♥ FANCY ♥

GET TO KNOW ME THROUGH AND THROUGH Extracts From My Manuscript
"THE PAIN THAT GREW FANCY"

I CRY
June 15, 2004


When the stars come out at night
I sit at my secret place and cry
Cry pain
Cry why
Cry
Gentle tears run down my face as I cry
You Cry
I Cry
We all Cry
But we all Cry differently
for different reasons
I Cry
I Cry because I know not what love is
I Cry because I want and need to know
I Cry
For Love not Hate
For happiness not Pain
For Companionship not Loneliness
I need Love, I Am Love
I was made in my Fathers’ image
and my Father is love
I Cry
From the Depths of my Soul
and the Blood Red of my heart
I Cry
He knows why I Cry
I Cry because of him
Because he wants others
Because he craves others
He once Craved me
My Love
My Heart
My Soul
My Companionship
My Friendship
ME
But now he no longer Craves these things
No longer Craves me
He Craves
Her
Her
Her too
All of You
Not me
He Cheats
He Lies
He Hurts me
He doesn’t Care
I Crave love not pain
Which means I don’t Crave him anymore
So we’re just the same, two of a kind
But No
He cheated, he did this to me
But how can I let go
Who knows
I Cry because I no longer have love
I don’t think I ever had it
I had lust
He lusted after
My Beautiful Face
My Cherry Plump lips
The Curve of my Waist
The swing of my hips
My innocent Smile
My soft tender touches
My Virginal walk and talk
He Lusted
But he doesn’t lust anymore
Because time has stolen all these things from me
I have grown, I’m no longer innocent
So he lusts after others
But says he loves and cares for me
That he needs me
Wants me
That he Craves me
But I’m no longer here
I’m gone
I’m but a memory now
A distant memory
That in time will fade
While he moves on to his next prey
Before
I used to Cry for his happiness
Pray and cry that God gives me the Ability to please him
To love him
Now
I Cry that God gives me happiness
and the ability to please myself
I Cry and pray to forget him…………

By: Samantha Logan

Living A Fancy Life By Lady Fancy

GIVE TALENT A FAIR CHANCE

Been thru the struggles you saw me go through the pain but one day it will change!! ♥ FANCY ♥.....Give Talent A Chance To Shine~ Producers~ Disc Jockies~ Gate Men~Promoters~Selectors etc. Stop This Dutty Habit Of Degrading Women...Don't Think You Can Tickle My Fancy Fi A Buss Ina This Music Industry..